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Allowing myself to be vulnerable with people was never my strong point. I’d be the type of person who held it all back until one day I explode and find myself in handcuffs surrounded by a dozen cops, but thats for another blog post.
Let me introduce my good friend Torsten Toto Kremser. Since the first day we met I could tell he was already a conscious thinker like me and although we don’t always see eye to eye we defiantly sync on a more spiritual level. Toto runs a charity in Kenya creating social change to the masses. His mission is to build a better world, by starting with a better me. Such a simple but powerful concept. He recently asked me to give him a hand with a fundraise he just started called #giveaschoolvan. I helped him by editing the video below which was recorded and sent over by Alexandra Uvarova.
Recently he asked me to talk on his podcast he runs called “The Toto Experience“. It is all about inspiring minds, purpose, health, wealth, consciousness and freedom. I really had a good time just sharing my entire story from working as an employee for Best Buy, quitting my job, living in my car and traveling South East Asia on my bicycle. I talked his ear off for over an hour but the truth is we relate on so many levels and off the mic we both do an equal amount of sharing.
I didn’t always have the confidence to share my past experiences. I blamed my highschool girlfriend who cheated on me and my parents who went through a nasty divorce years back. I learned to put up a wall to avoid myself from taking any real action. I thought if I never try, I never fail. Since my ex, I never treated women the same and felt the need sabotage the relationship when things got too close. I’d say “oh yea, she’s perfect” and acted like an asshole so I guaranteed coming out without a broken heart.
Now, my true state of vulnerability was only fully realized this past year. People in Asia are so nice and caring and warm hearted. I don’t mean others in the U.S. aren’t nice but the learning curve was expedited out here. It was the time when a beautiful family invited me into their home and treated me like one of their own. Also the times when complete strangers offered me fruit while I sat on the streets to just chill out. They have retaught me the golden rule:
“Treat others the way you want to be treated”
Sounds corny, but its so true. I know my parents did their best, I was a spoiled little bitch with an in ground pool and a fridge filled with tons of food from the supermarket. I know my ex didn’t mean to dig my heart out and slice it thin like a Tofurky dipped it in gravy but fed it to the dog under the table on Thanksgiving Day.
Maybe if my parents were completely honest with their feelings what would of happened instead? What if my ex girlfriend and I actually worked on our problems instead of me pretending to? What if I stopped trying to be a tough guy and just kept it 100% real? I wanted people to be real with me but I wasn’t even willing to give them that respect. So I thought, if complete strangers can do it for me I can try do the same.
I open up to so everyone while traveling because it allows for the conversation to reach incredible depth. I’m not interested anymore in the weather. I want to know what makes you happy, what motivates you, what you live for or what would you die for. I want to know about your dreams and what makes you laugh. Let me know what makes you sad and why you get angry. I want know that you are willing to look like a fool for love!
Now, I am confident with who I am and I’m not threatened by others opinions of me. I have been knocked down enough to realize the worst that can happen is death and I’m still doing alright. Many will judge me no matter what so I don’t think much of what people say and just do what’s in my heart. The only difference is I share as much as I possibly can so others can understand my journey. It allows me to just cut through the b.s. to build a more honesty and genuine relationship with those who are willing to do the same. I know there are so many good people in this world I just have to maybe try a little bit harder to find them.
Toto’s #giveaschoolvan fundraiser – Generosity
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